The summer is coming to a close.

What's going on? Seriously. Crazy dreams.. followed by innocent people dying. A boy at my school commited suicide yesterday. He hung himself. How sick can people be to bully this poor guy to death. I don't get it. We've had school for 4 days.. and this happend. Insane.
I've had dreams of people dying lately.. and quite frankly, i'm terrified. I'm scared to lose the ones I love. What if something happend? I don't know what i'd do.

He sits in his cell, and he lays on his bed.

It scares me when you talk like that. It scares me because of what i've already been through. You remind me so much of him when you swear and storm off. I'm scared for what has already happend with someone else, and what could happen again. You know i'm scared of him, and what he did.. Please smile.. I hate seeing you upset. I'm trying not to show emotion, or say anything that could set you off.. I don't want to make you even more upset. I know you're not mad at me, but it still scares me to see you like this. It's no use getting over silly little things that shouldn't matter. They waste your time. Please don't be mad love, it's not worth it.

Stay with me untill I fall asleep.

Tired. That's all I feel. Not just physically, but mentally. Just tired of everything that goes on. I shouldn't have to be stressed out at my age, but yet, I am. I really just want to crawl into a hole, and fall asleep. Forever. I'd really rather not go back to school on Tuesday, but I have to. I have to go to school, do my home work, and go to bed like a good girl. :l
It's really annoying having someone wanting you to be the perfect kid. I know i'm not the only one who think's it's a drag having a parent want you to do 'the best you can' in school, when they really mean 'do what I say'. When I try my best, it's never good enough. I always get the "you can do better" speach, or the "I know this isn't your best". How do you know? Are you in my brain? Are you secretly me? No. I'm not perfect, nor will I ever be.

I'm like a brand new chick.

Cheat on him? Really? Wow, your just like everyone else. Why must people try to interfear with other peoples' happiness? It's really quite annoying. I thought you were my friend. Apparently not then. You call me your best friend.. but when will you act like mine? You're rude, you're inconsiderate, and quite frankly, i'm pissed off at you. I've helped you through so much, and then you ask me to cheat on him with you. You obviously don't know that i'm head over heals for him. You'll never have a chance with me. I'm not saying that to be rude, or oboxious. I'm saying it because from this point on, i'll never look at you the same way. I only have two words for someone like you. Fuck you.

Maybe i'm a different breed.

So, nothing to interesting today. Talked to him pretty much all day, but didn't get to see him. That kinda sucked. I only get to see him maybe once a week. But oh well, can't complain. Atleast I get to see him. Just kind of sat around today. Had my sister over for dinner, and tried to convince her to break up with her boyfriend. School starts next week. Great. Having to deal with teachers is just what I want to do for 2 more years. It's almost over. Highschool I mean. I'm almost free. I hate Highschool. It's really no fun at all. Friends are great, but that's about the only part I like.

Come on skinny love, just last the year.

I can't even begin to explain what he means to me. Being with him today.. just made me the happiest person ever. I don't know what i'd do if anything ever happend to him. I worry about him..driving home.. being at work.. because I can't be there if something happens. I wish he was here right now. I love having his arms around me. He makes me feel safe.. He wouldn't let anything happen to me. He tells me he loves me.. and I beleive him. He gives me butterflies when I see his spectacular smile.. and look into his amazing blue eyes. Knowing he's in my life just gives me the extra encouragement to keep living. He helps me live. Without him, I don't know where i'd be. I hate saying goodbye when he has to leave. I want to be with him every second of the day. He'd never hurt me.. and i'll never hurt him. Sometimes I wonder if he regrets meeting me.. but deep down I know he's happy with me, just as i'm happy with him. I hope we'll last forever. I don't know where i'd go if he wasn't here to help me.